The Very Bad Day

 I went out last night. I gave myself a night off and spent it helping my Mum celebrate her Birthday. Seemed like a great idea at the time, but now? Not so much.

Aspies don't like changes to their routine and me not being home with them is a big change. Heck I am their routine! So today I am facing the consequences of my actions..

We've had meltdowns. Alot of meltdowns. Now, my meltdown warning system has been on high alert for a couple of years now...I can usually spot one coming and diffuse it's power with one of my many meltdown busting tools. But not today. 

I made this

So Ryan could do this

 But then this happened

So the thing I did to avoid a meltdown actually ended up causing one.

Then I cut Pierces toast into triangles when I know he only eats it cut in squares and forgot to turn the power point on when I plugged Ryans iPod into charge and a heap of other things that shouldn't really matter but on a day like today were massive, huge, big deal type things.

I have surrendered. I have given Ryan string, sticky tape and chocolate. Pierce has unlimited screen time.

I have survived, weary but wiser. Some times "time off"... isn't!